I’m coming up on day 60! I was reading Wellah’s blog the other day (she’s also on day 58) and she mentioned her intense cravings for heavy food (braised chicken!) and said “I’m ready to eat when the thought of chewing on celery sticks makes me flip out with excitement and joy, “I can’t imagine anything else more delicious than some celery sticks right now!! Gimme, gimme, gimme!!”- and I realized…this is how I’ve been feeling for awhile. I have the occasional craving for cheese or a burrito but mostly what I’ve been thinking about is crispy lettuce, sprouts, figs, and yes, celery. I mentioned to her in the comments section that I feel like if I stopped at day 60 I would have accomplished enough. Emotionally, the way I feel about food and life, made such a swift shift. During the last fast, I lived in fear of eating again. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy. I saw myself eating things that wouldn’t make me feel good in quantities that weighed me down. I’m going to write more about this later but I’ll just say for now that I don’t have that fear anymore. Not that I think I’m going to be the perfect model of healthy eating, I’m just not afraid.
I doubt I’ll actually stop at day 60- I’m too curious about what another month could hold. And Wellah would be going on without me and I just know I’d regret missing out on finishing 90 days with her! It’s been so fun sharing this experience, even when we haven’t caught up for awhile, its amazing knowing that she’s always on the same day I am.
My sleep patterns are still way off which is frustrating. I’m used to being such a good sleeper but it’s rare to get a full night these days. I’m still playing with weekly water fasts and I’m just so intrigued by the experience that I wonder if it’s something I’ll continue even after the juice feast. We’ll see, at the end of the last one I’d considered a weekly juice feast but eating was just way too much fun for that 😀
I came across a pile of bright, crisp, fresh rhubarb at Whole Foods last week and instantly knew I had to try juicing it! It’s a bit tart and I don’t overuse it but I always love a little variety and the combo below is my favorite so far.
Rhubarb Sweet Tart
2 stalks rhubarb
1 lb carrots
The days currently seem to be just creeping by. The other day I posted something on Instagram with the hashtag “day 56″…It was day 52. Oops. I’m not trying to rush it by, really! Although I often think about how 60 days would be a lovely stopping point. But then I get curious…what might I miss if I stopped that soon? I think about days 60-90 on my last juice feast and some of the biggest breakthroughs (and toughest days…) happened then. So I’ll probably get to 90 but there’s a part of me that’s not going without a fight 😉
There was a yoga class on Youtube recently where the teacher said something that has really stuck with me. We were moving through some tough poses and she reminded her “at home viewers” that the heat and discomfort and (potentially) resistance building in our bodies were just the “fires of transformation”. That shift in perspective made the discomfort more bearable and I’ve found myself using that thought a lot. Moments where I want to tense up and resist where I’m at or eat a bottle of spirulina or guzzle juice until my stomach aches because I’m frustrated or stressed…these uncomfortable feelings are the fires of transformation. I find myself breathing more and tuning out (a little) less. I think it might be a life-long practice but it’s an idea that’s helping me enjoy the current journey more.
Juicing Herbs. My little Breville juicer does not take to it well. We had a stash of rosemary that was bordering going bad but I’d never had luck throwing it in the juicer so I thought, why I can’t I use the same trick I use for bananas and dates? So I juiced up my produce and threw it in the blender with a sprig of rosemary, strained out the pulp and had an incredibly fragrant mid-morning treat!
Red Rosemary Citrus
1 sprig rosemary
Juice produce and pour into blender with rosemary. Blend thoroughly and strain fiber through a cheesecloth or nut milk bag.
It’s beet quite a week here in juice feasting land! I mentioned on my last post that I was in the middle of an 11 day stretch of work days- thankfully that’s now coming to an end! I did start to go a little crazy this week and my body wasn’t feeling so good. I backed off on the super cleansing/awakening stuff (beet and wheatgrass juice) and had a little spirulina and chlorella. The “treat” unfortunately did not help me feel any better and I was in pretty bad shape the day before yesterday. Soooo yesterday I had a short shift in the morning and took the day to water fast. I was pretty miserable and slept as much as I possibly could. This morning I woke up feeling sparkly and rejuvenated! I broke 36 hours on water with a diluted carrot juice spiced up with some DoTERRA ginger essential oil and a sprinkling of cinnamon.
I’m not sure why I keep trying all these pills and potions- I never really feel anything when I take them. Today I finished a jar of Healthforce Nutritionals SCRAM parasite cleanse. I’ve heard from people who have taken this before that it was intense. You’re supposed to take 10 pills a day so I was braced for something crazy! I felt nothing. Maybe I don’t have parasites or maybe since my system is so calm with no food going in there wasn’t a lot for the SCRAM to run in to. Alas, I can be a sucker for marketing. As the jar says: IT’S YOU OR THEM! Move them out!!- how could I resist?? I’ve heard a million times that we all have undesirable parasites in our bodies so why not take the chance to get them out? Well, I have no idea if I had them or if it did anything but I currently feel no better or worse off.
I’ll leave this little update with the most delectable coconut water concoction I’ve had yet:
Spicy Vanilla Ginger Coconut Water
32 oz coconut water
pinch of vanilla bean
pinch of cayenne
2 drops DoTERRA ginger essential oil
Attempting some pre-work relaxation in the sunshine on day 50.
So I’ve noticed that the less I blog, the less I feel a need to blog. During my first juice feast I felt like I really needed it to keep myself accountable. This time I’m not really worried about that. I do have a variety of topics I want to address and a stash of recipes I’d like to post but the daily “I’m feeling this way or that” doesn’t feel as necessary.
I will give a quick update as to the last few days and probably continue on from here with updates a few times a week. The last couple of days were really wonderful, I felt intensely relaxed and content and was really enjoying just about everything. Today I feel tight and tired and a little bit sad. I’ve gone from “90 days won’t be nearly enough!!!” to “90 days can’t come fast enough…how about 60?” I’m allowing myself to feel this way, trying not to escape it, just feeling it, asking myself questions to figure out why I might be feeling this way etc. I kind of feel like it might just be because I’m in the middle of an eleven day stretch of working with no days off and it just feels kind of depressing. I love time to myself, I love quiet, and I am truly an introvert extraordinaire. I’m feeling a pretty strong need to just crawl into my shell and stay there but it’s not an option at the moment. The really good news is I will soon be going from two jobs to just one and the thought of more than one day off a week with lots of time for long walks, sunshine, books, baths and some more water fasting sounds unbelievably appealing.
Cravings and cleansing. I’ve been releasing just heaps and heaps of mucus and at the same time craving cheese like crazy. I’m looking forward to the upswing of this low time for sure, it’s definitely feeling challenging.
Today marks the HALF WAY point in this juice feast. Someone asked me the other day what day I was on and when I said 43 they were like “whoah, not even halfway yet!”…and I was sitting there thinking “it’s all going too fast!”. It actually feels a little bittersweet to be halfway through. I’m just enjoying this process so much. High days, low days, and everything in between. Yesterday was a mish mash, I didn’t sleep well the night before (my one major complaint on this juice fast) and had some work stress on top of that. I’m a little embarrassed to admit that the highlight of my day was pure vanity. A dress that I bought last Fall that never really fit slipped on easily. Also a jacket that I’ve owned for years but never been able to shut buttoned up with no problems. I was asked recently if I knew how much weight I’d lost and I had to admit that I have no idea! It doesn’t feel like a ton, just like things have tightened up and my clothes fit differently.
Today was lovely, lovely, lovely. I went for a walk in the park afterwork and it was completely dreamy…I kind of just wanted to hug everyone…and I’m not really much of a hugger! I haven’t talked a lot about colon cleansing on this fast but I’d really be nowhere without all the waste that’s leaving my body. The past couple of days it has truly just smelled awful for the first time that I can recall. Yesterday I also had a really horrible taste in my mouth. Thank goodness for tongue scrapers! Alright. Enough of the gross. Here is a vibrant pink juice in honor of Valentines day (which I have to admit, we don’t actually celebrate) that includes the sweetness of fresh banana! The trick to “juicing” a banana is just to blend it with your juice and strain the pulp through a cheesecloth or nut milk bag. I don’t do it often but it’s a great treat!
CinnaBeet Love Juice
4 oranges, peeled
1 very ripe banana, peeled
Juice oranges and beets and pour juice into a blender with the banana. Blend until completely smooth and strain through a nut milk bag or a cheesecloth. Sprinkle with cinnamon.
I’m definitely in a weird place with my body the last couple days. On the one hand, I had the best night of sleep I’ve had in a while and woke up feeling really positive. I also went out of the house with *no* makeup and felt pretty great about the way my skin looked. On the other hand, I’m getting nauseous more often and not feeling super strong. I’m really craving *texture*. I was looking at the carrot pulp from my juicer and thinking about how it would make a delicious mock tuna salad 🙂 Anyways, lows like today seem to be always followed by really great highs so I’m riding it out. I would love to be able to ride it out at home but I’ll be working late tonight, thus the early post.
Jicama juice! Wow. Milky, creamy, and sweet, it’s a perfect base for any vegetable juice combo and it’s really replaced cucumber for me at the moment! Everyone I’ve shared this with has absolutely loved it and lately I just can’t get enough.
Jicama Surprise Juice
2 large jicama
1 bunch cilantro
1 lime, peeled
1/2 a jalapeño, seeded
Today’s Juice Feast: 32 oz carrot/chard, 3 oz wheatgrass, 32 oz CinnaBeet Love Juice (recipe to come), 32 oz Jicama Surprise Juice, 32 oz celery/apple, 32 oz carrot/kale.
I am quite exhausted today. I think I was expecting, after a full day of serious rest, that I’d have tons of energy today! Instead I felt like I was in recovery mode, my muscles weren’t quite up to speed and I just felt tired. I also felt a bit of anxiety after introducing fruit juice back into my system like it might have just been too much sugar all at once. I had some long periods of feeling nauseous and it took my headache awhile to leave this morning. It’s interesting, after so long on juice, to be experiencing some sort of detox-y effects again!
I felt pretty resistant to being at work today. My mood was good and I always enjoy the people I work with but my body felt tense and I just wanted to go home. I kept trying to coax myself into relaxing but my body wasn’t having it. Finally, towards the end of my shift I realized that I wasn’t breathing and that even if I couldn’t force relaxation I could get myself to breathe. It felt pretty forced at first but after a few long, deep breaths, I felt my tension start to release and it felt like a soothing balm on my insides. Note to self: BREATHE.
I did have some pretty major cravings today for comfort food! Things I don’t usually crave at all: cake, bread, pizza, etc. As my shift was over I had the thought that maybe I would buy something as a sort of comforting treat. Then I realized that I’d just be trading one compulsive, temporary pleasure for another! I didn’t need anything, and nothing was going to really make me feel as good as going home, unwinding, reconnecting with myself and hanging out with my wife.
The other thing I noticed today was that my body shrunk a bit after a day on water and it kinda freaked me out a bit. Water fasting is not at all about weight loss for me but I found myself in a mild panic. What if I put weight back on and I’m never this tiny again??- and other such thoughts poured out of my brain. The truth is, I don’t expect to stay at my fasting size and my non-fasting size is just fine! My old patterns still crop up though and I have to remind myself that it’s ok to drink as much juice as I need today and that the juice nourishes me so I can be and experience and LIVE regardless of my jeans size. So here I am tonight, drinking my warm, date sweetened (and strained) tea, with sleepy time herbs and enjoying every bit!
Orange Creamsicle Coconut Water
32 oz coconut water
1/2 tsp vanilla bean
2 drops DoTerra Wild Orange essential oil